Punching Bag

Senior year. It's the final period of one's life at high school and it's bittersweet. Come November, all everyone will be talking about is college. Ick. I love college, love talking about it when I want to, but I detest the conversations that tend to occur around them. Such as, "I'm applying to all these colleges...blah blah blah....yeah I need to get into them because they're so good and all that junk". Well, I plan on going to college period. I don't need to be accepted into a UC or a school of certain prestige in order to feel smart, capable, intellectual, etc. In fact, I openly refuse to support the UC system and all its crap. Right now, and even through the weeks of applying to two or three colleges, I will be enjoying high school life. That means not having to worry about how I'm putting food in front of myself for the night, how I'm going to pay bills and taxes, and what I need to buy at the grocery store for the week. I am not an adult yet, therefore I don't believe I need to pretend to be something I'm not. For my seventeenth year on earth, if God wills it, I am determined to savor my "freedom". Meaning, making decisions with what to do with money that I earn because God knows I won't have it once I start to receive responsibilities in my adult life. Being 17 means I'm asking God and my parents and family to help prepare me for life, but not to expect me to jump on the bandwagon of complacency and just accept things the way they are. I will question why I have to do something I don't want to do, why I have to give things up for other things. Why priorities for me are not for others. I just want to surrender to the fact that I can't figure everything out before I have to. I can only be prepared to grow up after it's already happening, which it is. So, my motto for the moment is "roll with the punches, but dish out some of your own". Yup, sounds good to me. hehe

That post was a bit scatter-brained haha oh well